It’s been a long time since I’ve really written anything on here. Lots has happened in that time, I got kicked out of college, went to York all by myself which was aweeesoommme, had a job interview which I didn’t get, got a letter today telling me I didn’t get it, booo. Umm what else? I managed to mess up my sleep schedule so I’m waking up in the afternoon and going to bed when most other people are waking up. Yuck. Trying to sort that out. I also really want to get back into eating right and doing stuff (thats how i say exercise so that it doesn’t scare me off haha) but it’s doubly hard when it’s the middle of winter and you live in not so sunny Scotland. It’s freezing all the time and dark for most of the day so you just wanna eat and curl up on the couch. Not to mention, with Christmas coming up there’s just food everywhere. It’s not good. So I’m gonna try n start being healthier. I was doing really good last year and ended up being the lightest I’ve ever been (maybe that was a couple years ago… =S) and it was so good but then I kinda fell of the wagon and ended up putting weight back on plus more. But it stops here.

I’m just kinda fed up of myself just doing nothing all day and messing stuff up for myself. It’s a bad cycle and it really has to stop.

So tomorrow I’m getting waked up at 9 and I’m gonna tidy up the house then walk to the town, probably just get the bus back cos I have like no money. Then I’m gonna clean the house, especially my room which is really messy cos when I came home from my holiday I just emptied my suitcase onto the floor and never put anything away =S. Also gonna try get my stuff organized cos it’s just a big jumble and I don’t like it. Anyway, that was kind of a weird one. All plans and stuff, probably quite boring to read, me ranting about myself the whole time. Oh well.

Night/Morning

xx